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Playing catch up in one post… Wed, 19 Jan 2011 05:06:13 +0000 Mom I was a horrible blogger with just Kellar, now that Londyn has arrived I can almost bet that my blogging may be cut down to 2 times a year, nah hopefully I’ll get better and start back up. Londyn is 6 wks old and I’m learning things that I didn’t get to learn with Kellar. Kellar came home from the hospital and was pretty much good to go, formula was decided on, reflux meds were prescribed and his sleep schedule was perfect. Londyn however is a spitter and we are on our 3rd type of formula to hopefully get her spitting/reflux under control. I say she has reflux but her upper GI was good but when she burps I hear it come up and she makes a horrible face and will start coughing or hiccuping so I feel that she is refluxing. Kellar is still my amazing little boy, my amazing little boy that has developed a dislike for school. I’m hoping that once I go back to work and we are back to our normal “routine” that he’ll settle back in and not cry when we walk in the door of his class. It’s hard to leave him when he’s upset, part of me wants to let him stay home but I know if I give in then he’ll think all he has to do is cry and he’ll get his way so thankfully his teacher is very understanding and is able to calm him down once we leave. Kellar has adjusted fairly well to having a new baby in the house, he loves her and is very protective. I was worried about him feeling left out and being able to juggle taking care of her and being there for him, I won’t lie it’s hard at times but hopefully I’ll have it all figured out before long. I try and really explain to him that she’s a baby and that when he was a baby we did the same thing for him, he’ll normally ask lots of questions about him being a baby and then he’s pretty much ok with us having to hold her or pick her up when she’s upset. Londyn is growing so much, she’s lost that baby look and has started to fill out and has even started to smile some and with that comes those cute coos that babies make. I’m not looking forward to going back to work, I was able to stay home with Kellar for 3 1/2 yrs but won’t be able to do that with Londyn, makes me sad! We had a wonderful Christmas with family, Kellar as usual got way to much but they’re only little once and he was super excited. We had our first snow here a week or so ago, Kellar would stay out in it all day if I weren’t the paranoid mother that I am. Well that’s a short summary of what’s been going on around here….




She’s here…. Wed, 08 Dec 2010 16:45:43 +0000 Mom Londyn Paige made her arrival 12/03/10 at 38 wks 1 day. To say that I am tickled to have went to term is a understatement, I still can’t believe it! Londyn weighed 9 lbs and was 22 1/4 inches long, funny thing is that looking at her now she doesn’t look like this big baby but I know 9 lbs is considered a big baby. I had to have a c-section with her since I had the TAC. I’m sorry but having a c-section is no breeze, it made me feel horrible. I threw up I can’t even remember how many times during the procedure so for all of you ladies that have had one and hear how lucky you are b/c you didn’t have to push that kid out I now can say I know different and easy it’s not. Joey came in for the first part of it but bless his heart he had to go out and missed my dr pulling her out by probably a matter of seconds. When I heard her cry, a very loud and strong cry I knew that I had done it, she was here and sounded healthy. Joey was able to go into the nursery room with her while they weighed her and I assume did a newborn assesement on her while our family and friends stood outside the nursery viewing window. I wish I could have seen Kellars face when they brought her to the window to show him, I wish I could have seen what Joey looked like walking up to show off our daughter, our full term daughter! Once I was stitched up they moved me to my room for recovery and Joey and the baby were able to join me. The feeling of not having to get on a elevator and go sign in to a nicu to look at your little one for the first time through a isolette can not be described. I was able to hold her, I could kiss her, I could stroke her face and look at how perfect she was while she was in my arms, it was awesome. I never posted about this but we were given bad news about my blood screening, it showed that Londyn was at increased risk for having down syndrome. I can’t lie and say that the last 18 wks of my pregnancy were not a mix of emotions. Joey and I opted against a amnio b/c it wouldn’t have changed our choice of continuing with the pregnancy by any means, but the thought of it lingering in the back of my head made me nervous about delivery day. I in my heart felt she was fine, I know that I prayed constantly for the blood work to be wrong and I had others that I know had prayed that as well. When I seen her I instantly knew it was going to be okay, I loved her from the moment I knew I was pregnant but holding her I knew no matter what she was our baby and she was perfect, just like Kellar. We were told so much negative info about Kellar and the effects of his prematurity but he was our baby and we loved him regardless of what the drs felt his future would be like, look how wrong they were on that he’s doing everything they said he’d never do. Londyn thank you Jesus does not have ds. She is such a pretty baby and our family of 4 is complete. Kellar has been a wonderful big brother so far, he loves her and is very protective of her. I think Joey and I have forgotten what it’s like to have a baby but then again this whole experience has been so different for the both of us but so far it’s been great. This Christmas I have the best gifts anyone could ever ask for, a wonderful husband and 2 precious kids that God has blessed me with.


2 more days as a family of 3…. Thu, 02 Dec 2010 03:54:47 +0000 Mom Wow. It’s hard to believe that on Friday our family of 3 will be 4. Kellar is excited and talks about his baby Londyn daily, he will ask me several times a day if Londyn is done growing in my tummy and can come out now. I can’t believe I have carried her to 38 wks, the constant aches and pains are a daily reminder of how big she is but I am beyond thankful for this experience, it’s not something I plan on doing again though. I still think of how things would have been if I had pushed for this stitch with Kellar but again I am beyond thankful for my precious lil miracle that he’s turned out to be. I have been a bundle of emotions the last week, I think it’s hit me finally that Kellar will not be the only child in our house and goodness knows he’s been #1 for 4 years. It’s like I have this guilty feeling about him having to share our attention now. We were out buying things that we need in order for Londyn to come home and I teared up several times while shopping for her in front of him, he’d ask what I was doing and it’s like I would choke up saying that I was trying to find Londyn a sleeper, or trying to decide what binkys to get her because it’s always been me looking for something for him, he wasn’t the least bit bothered by it and was happily picking out stuff for his baby sister but I on the other hand found myself thinking I had to get him something too. I’ve laid in the bed at night and wondered how this is going to affect him, will he still be ok with it after she gets here, will he be upset with us for having another baby, is he going to ignore me b/c I’m going to be taking care of Londyn? Or will he be the best big brother around and look forward to the day she’s chasing him around the house getting into all his toys? I know I’m extremely emotional and my feelings are going in 986 different directions. So Friday is the big day…thoughts and prayers appreciated… ]]> 30 days…. Wed, 10 Nov 2010 00:36:00 +0000 Mom and baby Londyn will make her arrival. Kellar is still excited and talking about his sister and constantly picking out stuff to buy her, it’s sweet and hopefully that trend will continue once she gets here. I at times can’t believe I have made it this far in my pregnancy, after a loss at 20 wks and Kellar coming at 26 ( failed tvc ) I’m so happy to be 35 wks and so near term. I think back on my pregnancy with Kellar and wish I had pushed for a abdominal cerclage. I didn’t know it wasn’t going to hold up and I thought I was doing the right thing but thinking about what all Kellar went through it does make me a little sad butI wouldn’t change anything about Kellar today, I think he’s perfect and I feel so blessed at how well he’s doing.
Kellar is still loving school and learning so much, he won’t tell you what he’s learning you have to “catch” him playing and just sit back and listen. He has learned where his cranium is, his mandible, patella, phalanges, ribs, heart and I’m sure there’s others that I’m leaving out. He’s couting pretty well, recognizes his ABC’s and is learning the states and presidents but his attention span needs some work. I know he knows more than what he puts on but getting him to show his teacher what all he knows is something he’s not doing and I’m not sure what to do about it, if you put him on the spot and ask him something he’ll clam up and not say a word, hope he gets over that or we’ll be in trouble when he starts kindergarten. ]]>
3 days down… Sat, 11 Sep 2010 00:29:43 +0000 Mom We are 3 days into preschool and so far so good, I’m sure the weekend will throw us back a few steps and come Monday morning he may be a grumpy lil fella but this week has gone quite smooth! Kellar has woke up the last 2 mornings ready to go, this morning he was a lil draggy and grumpy but once he got to school he enjoyed himself. The first day Kellar learned what sounds the “baby” a and t make, he colored a coloring sheet and counted. On day 2 they added the letter b in, learned about the cranium and heart, counted to 40 and sang their ABC’s and learned the primary colors and the teacher explained that they were important because many colors are made by mixing them. This morning I took Kellar to school and he wasn’t as eager to stay, he teared up and that made it hard for me to leave but I know it’s best to let the teacher step in and take his attention off me leaving. I called to see how he did this afternoon and if he settled down after I left and of course he did and was fine. Mrs Margaret is very good about going over what they did in class and how well Kellar participated, she said she asked about primary colors and Kellar says “they’re important” so we know he did at least listen some yesterday. I’m so excited to see what all he is going to learn! I know that there will be days where he doesn’t want to participate and may not pay attention to anything but I’m hopeful he’s going to learn quite a bit. Kellar and his buddy Layne are on the verge of being seperated because they like to talk alot and Kellar has also been “driving” his chair around the room, it’ll be a matter of time before he puts somebody under arrest! Laynes mom and I have been friends since kindy, we both think it’s really neat that our kids are starting their friendship out at a young age like we did. So this sums up Kellars 1st week of Pre-K that obviously wore him out since he’s already asleep. ]]> Meet the teacher…. Wed, 08 Sep 2010 02:14:12 +0000 Mom Was a total success! A few weeks ago I never would have pictured Kellar waking up eager to go to school so him waking up at 5:00 am this morning asking me if it was time was a huge surprise. I told him to go back to sleep and we would get up in a hour or so and then get ready for school, I woke him up a little after 6 and he jumped right up ready to get dressed and head out the door. I was relieved and sad all at once, relieved because maybe just maybe he is going to love school and sad because my baby boy is growing up on me and the thought of leaving him at school under somene elses care breaks my heart. Joey came in from work and we loaded Kellar up and headed to school. Kellar at first tried realy hard to play shy but all it took was her playing a game with him and he was off Joeys hip and exploring the room. I have a feeling it’s going to be a good school year for Kellar, his teacher taught my brother and knows my dad real well so that makes me feel more at ease. I think Kellar will have around 15 in his class and hopefully will make lots of new friends. Tomorrow will be his first real day of class, Joey and I will take him and hopefully I get out of there without having a breakdown! Kellar also goes for his 4 yr shots tomorrow, please say a little prayer he does ok with this, gosh I so dislike having to take him to get stuck. ]]> Preparing myself… Mon, 19 Jul 2010 01:01:29 +0000 Mom Kellar starts pre-k 4 in September and I’m already trying to mentally prepare myself for sending my baby off to school. I know he’s got to go, he really needs the structure but the thought of it breaks my heart, he’s growing up and maybe I’m just not ready for it. We are going to send him to a small school, the teacher only takes maybe 15 kids, she taught my brother years ago and knows my dad really well so that makes me feel a little better, not to mention everyone that I know that has used her loved her! I feel like I’ve failed in preparing Kellar for school though, that also makes me sad! I’ve tried to teach him things but it’s like talking to this computer screen, he has no interest in anything to do with numbers or letters. When he was 2 he was counting to 20 and now I do good to get him to count to 5, he was singing his ABC’s and now he refuses to say them, he will not sit down to attempt to learn to make the first letter of his name, I don’t know what to do other than hope and pray he’s only being stubborn because it’s me asking him to do these things. I have asked several other parents and they all pretty much say their child does the same thing and then he gets to school and just blows the teacher away, lord please let my child do this haha! He’s smart I have no doubt, somedays I’m boggled at the stuff he knows but he’s also stubborn and that may be a issue when it comes to the “structured” part of school. We decided that him only going for 1/2 a day would be plenty for now, he’s got the rest of his life to be at school all day long so he’ll go for 3 1/2 hrs then go home and hopefully be more willing to work with Joey and I on things pertaining to learning. Onto other things, Kellar still hasn’t really grasped the concept that there will be a baby in the house in 5 months or so, he’ll talk about his baby sister YES IT’S A GIRL but I’m not sure he’s fully aware of what will take place and that he’s not going to be the only baby in the house. We have some major toy cleaning we have to get done before long, our house is going to be quite crowded but we’ll make do. I had some changes with my job which resulted in a paycut so that put a change in our plans of getting into a bigger house, but it will all work out in the end I just have to keep reminding myself that God is in control of the situation and he’ll see us through this as well. And that’s about all that’s going on in our little part of the world, just trying to stay cool during the summer and prepare for school and a baby girl!!!!! ]]> Since our last update… Thu, 24 Jun 2010 02:49:15 +0000 Mom Lets see….Kellar celebrated his 4th birthday with a wonderful party at Bounce A Lot with all of his family and friends. Kellar found out he’s going to be a BIG BROTHER!!!!! I’ll have to get back with you later to tell you how excited he is or when he finds out that this means sharing attention how unexcited he is, though I think he’s going to be a awesome big brother. Kellar has fallen in love with swimming and being in the water and has no fear which makes me a bit nervous! I have got to get him enrolled in swimming lessons, watching him maneuver his way around the pool I think he’ll do great and catch on quickly. Kellar is growing like a weed, he’s so tall and has turned into such a big big boy, makes me so sad to think that he’s going to be going to pre-k in a few months. Kellar loves kids, he loves playing with kids and asks every day to go to MeMe’s and play with the kiddos, this is one thing I know he’ll love about school. Kellar thinks he has to be on the go constantly, he never wants to stay home, this to at times breaks my heart. If someone is leaving he wants to go, he doesn’t care who it is he just wants to go but come night time he’s ready to come home to mommy and daddy. Our summer has been pretty boring, we had a vacation that we were wanting to take but being pregnant I just didn’t think I needed to chance it with walking all over the place plus this heat in Texas right now is horrible!!!! So notta whole lot to report we’re pretty boring around here right now but it’s great!!!! ]]> 4 years ago today…. Wed, 21 Apr 2010 02:12:35 +0000 Mom A Preemie Prince named Kellar was born. Every year my child teaches me more and more about life, he teaches me how the small things really do matter, he teaches me how to smile when I’m upset, he teaches me how to laugh when I really want to scream, he teaches me that love in unconditional! I sometimes find it hard to believe that my baby boy is 4 years old, where has the time gone? He’s getting so big, he’s becoming such a big boy and I miss that “baby” that he used to be though he’ll always be “my baby”. I’m so thankful for Kellar and all that he has become and I look forward to all the he will be. Happy Birthday Kellar! ]]>